Browsed a couple of blogs just now. Sigh, they're good (Translation: sigh, I'm crap).

Realised that I'm blogging less and less ad, maybe it's coz of the fact that, well, I have less and less to blog about these days. (and that I'm crap at writing)

I know why they're good, actually (Traslation: I know why I'm crap). It's coz they can express themselves so fluently and precisely. As for me, I get stuck if I write stuff that's too long (how I manage to produce essays during exams is still a mystery. Stress?). I can't just take a chunk of idea and put it into words. And I have a dysfunctional RAM in my head (means I need to write the idea out immediately or I'll have a 99.9% chance of erasing it from my memory).

And, well, just reading a few of their posts makes me feel like a cretin. Partly coz they write so well, partly coz they're life is so full and "action-packed" and interesting (btw, the fact that they're good and their life is more interesting is partly coz they're older and more matured). Can't help but feel that I'm not that type and can never be that type of person, those who excel in almost everything they do and leave people in awe everywhere they go. You know, the "super-influential"/i-can-take-anything-you-throw-at-me type. I wanna be that type, minus the snobbishness of course, but nevertheless..

Been pondering about what to do/be in the future, bought some career guidance mags (still think these stuff are kind of a scam to cheat upper sec. student's money, but oh well..), and realised that I wasn't extra interested in any course/career nor posses any qualities needed for any course/career. I'm doomed.

Ok ok, I might be exaggerating but still, I find that I do not have a fixed goal. A friend told me, "It's funny how sometimes those poor graded students seem to be so determined about their future career, and we can't even figure out what we like to be/do". Pathetic yet true.

Oh ya, watching BONES lately. Being a forensic anthropologist seems quite interesting, but I don't think I'll last very long examining human remains before I pass out.

Everytime someone asks me concerning what I plan to do after SPM, my answer is always, "Duno ar, see how my results turn out first lah. I think I will decide what to be/do after pre-U la.."

Hmm, maybe I should really stick to that answer, for the time being.

p/s: Getting irritated with the 'funny lil things' going on with my pc, connection and keyboard. Simply d/c. @ become " and vice versa. Rubbish download speed. Normal file suddenly become corrupted. Hang hang hang. etc. A lot lah, frustrated... That's why I hate having to send my pc to repairs, mess up my stuff and eat my $ and most importantly - din really fix the problem properly pun, ish.. Bro suggested that I tell jokes to the pc and be funny back - ha. ha. very funny bro. *fake smirk*

Ok, I've deceived myself into escaping horrid Sejarah long enough. Time to get back to 'buruh cina dan india' and 'dasar-dasar British'. *yawn*