Unexpect The Expected

During the days when I worked at Wan Beng, just as it would start to cloud up and seem like it was gonna pour, Tua Ee would ask me to pull the carts they had at the walkway into the shop. But she would always add: if you pull it in, it won't rain, and vice versa.

On some levels I've always thought that to be true. And events occurring these past few days just solidified it.

We didn't bring our passports, just student IDs, and we get carded twice in a night, ending up very sober.

I brought my passport to Tesco just in case, and I did get myself a Vino Verde, but didn't get carded at the till.

Then there's this whole long 'speech' I wrote so I had a draft of what I would discuss with the landlord. Because the reception at my place is shat, I need to go sit by the window to get a call through. Everytime I grabbed my 'speech' (written on the back of 3 receipts) and a pen and a notepad (to jot down whatever bs he throws at me that I need to convey to my flatmates), sit down at the window, place my phone in a strategic position, put on handsfree - he NEVER picks up. I've called him no less than 20 times and it always the same.

Then yesterday, being so distressed about other stuff, I just thought wth I've seen the 'speech' so many times i can recite it backwards, so I just stood at the window and dialed. Voila. The impossible-to-reach-guy actually icks up. Of course the conversation didn't help my stressed-out day, but that's another story.

And now, I'm all prepped to go view this other flat that he has in town. But will he show? No. Why? Well, mainly coz he's an a__, but also coz I'm all prepped.

Curveballs, that's just life.


P/S a day later: This is totally backed up by Marshall's 'Frozen Waffles' theory in HIMYM.

A Mandy Moore Song

Short but tiring day. Still hung up / hungover from Always. Didn't do much, didn't intend to do much anyway.

Had dinner at J & I's. Was supposed to meet with Mr. Landlord but boy oh boy did I get a good glimpse into human psychology tonight. Ended up watching Liverpool v Chelsea and eating cake and just talking.

Fg moments? I'll get over it by tomorrow.

Always

There is a universal truth we all have to face, whether we want to or not – everything eventually ends. Much as I’ve looked forward to this day, I’ve always disliked endings. Last day of summer, the final chapter of a great book, parting ways with a close friend. But endings are inevitable. Leaves fall, you close the book, you say goodbye. Today is one of those days for us. Today we say goodbye to everything that was familiar, everything that was comfortable. We’re moving on. But, just because we’re leaving, and it hurts, there are some people that are so much a part of us, they’ll be with us no matter what. They are our solid ground, our North Star, and the small clear voices in our hearts that will be with us, always.

--- Alexis

Happy Awesome Monday!

Woke up 5 plus today feeling like it was 8. Spring makes the body clock go a little cuckoo. But not always a bad thing.

It's just, waking up with expectations and nerves is, well, nerve-wrecking. And watching a gut-wrenching episode of drama (with the intention to calm oneself) doesn't really help the morning stomach acids.

That's me this morning, see how it goes by afternoon. Excited!

First Baby Step

Well, kraifest certainly happened, almost all as expected. Still, far from solved.

Then did the hour-long to and back walk to Big Tesco. Who cares if I don't really need to go so far for my basic groceries? I'm very free anyways. (I did refrain from buying anything that would require lugging back tho, guess that's also a way of being thrifty??)

Haven't had a drip of caffeine today (all hail decaffeinated tea!) but head throbbing like mad, and i'm burning up like shat now even tho it's cold - just random oddities.

Don't plan to sleep just yet. Some web comics, maybe a bit of novel or documentary.

Oh, did I mention it's inching second by second closer to Awesome Monday? Hell yeah!

Face It

Woke up before my alarm feeling like crap. I mean, if you wake up before the alarm, isn't that a sign that your body has rested enough so you can start your day? Apparently not always.

No exams. Hah. Ironic on so many levels.

Today I've 'scheduled' myself to face my demons.

I reset my alarm to go off later, but i can't fall back into sleep. I'm just lying there, letting whatever it is I'm feeling eat me up bit by bit.

So I thought hey, why not open my eyes, type this out, and wake up to seikai fuego?

Simple Solution

You know some YouTube videos, especially the older ones, tend to have a lag between image and sound...? If it's just 1 sec or so, and the expression and timing of the opening and closing of the person's mouth is still more or less accurate, I wouldn't really bother. But sometimes when it lags for quite a bit and the person you see speaking is already totally different from the voice you hear, it gets hard to follow the whole video properly.

In this rare occasion that I'm not sharing something about my life in my blog, I want to tell you a simple solution to this problem. Maybe because your brain works in a more normal and logical way than mine (something not hard to achieve, because my brain's logic is never normal), you probably already thought about this "solution" AGES ago. But for those of you who haven't, I hope you'll find this helpful.

I used to (we're talking primary school - high school years here) record the sound of the video with the pc sound recorder in a quiet room first and then replay it by muting the original video and matching it with the sound. COMPLICATED right? Oh well I already told you, my brain is as silly as silly can be.

Anyway, I encountered this problem again today and it's been years since I intended to "solve" this, being complacent with minor lagging all along. But today I was confronted by "major lagging", which was still OK but just made the whole funny video less interesting. So I thought about my old solution, the recording one, and it felt like just too much trouble just for a short video clip. Then I thought instead of recording, maybe I could download the whole video and play the "sound" part with that. Then it struck me --- instead of downloading the video to play it, why not just open another same webpage?!

Haha... My brain is really illogical sometimes. What people have already thought of from the start, I need to think from the end of the line and progress to the start.

Oh well so there you have it, that's what I realised today. Just open two webpages of the same video and play one then play the other to sync it. Not as hard to sync as you would imagine, just 2 tries in 10seconds and I got it working perfectly. So happy with the result that I felt the need to share, hahaha!

Sometimes, certain seemingly complicated problems actually have a simple solution to them. I just need to get my brain thinking straight. :)

有時候，不聯絡，是因爲你眼中的我和現在的我已經有落差。 我不想你看到這樣的我，因爲連我也不敢面對這樣的自己。

打不死

壓力、挫折、無理的阻力障礙、突然冒出的小事中事大事，來吧！！！ 我是打不死的！ 我要變強，我要學阿強x2，我要遇強愈強！！！ P/S: A2 for Commercial Law essay, not bad considering the amount of time I spent on it. Yet to know for the other two essays, no high hopes. Not proud. Work harder.

Two essays

Submitted two essays today, so tired but so relieved. One more next week. I dont understand why all social activities are happening on next weekend. Im already planning on missing all of them. Hide in my cave hard at work till November comes, then just when i think i can breathe a bit, exams will start. �� (blogger app test yo)

ALEB

I'll only record happy things. I am happy today because I got the ALEB. Consolation prize for not being able to be there, but a good thing still.

Keep blogging

I think of all the things I want to do but always put aside, I should really keep up blogging.

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First there was summer. My dream-come-true moments, my not so glamorous moments.

But now that it's all over and behind me, I should really get back on track, stay focused. And I think blogging can help here.

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Today felt quite warm, almost like a summer's day.

Double-packages to make a mark of who I am and what I like now, chips as celebration (oh god I really like salt & malt vinegar).

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I keep losing focus and letting lazy-bones take over. Continuous motivation, be productive, work work work!

Oh ya I started my language class. I have to do it. I can juggle both. I don't care.

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So yeah, I need to keep blogging, even though no-one understands what I'm writing, including me.

一定會

這句我記錄下了。

加油！

憾。

怎樣才能覺得無憾？

某說：愛過、堅持過、努力過、相信過，就算不如願也無憾。

某某說：生命裡出現過那麽一個想緊緊擁抱的人，而就算當下消失也無憾了。

而《末日》裡Y問了：如果世界還剩4分40秒就毀滅，你只能撥一通電話，會撥給誰？而如果你已經確定知道這個人是誰，爲什麽這通電話不現在就撥？

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曾經立下三個“與我無關虛擬”標準（半夜頭腦想不出更好的代稱），覺得如果達到這三件小事就算無憾。達到2/3也興奮傻了。

大概無憾就是要表達“非常開心”再升華一層的感受吧？是嗎是嗎是嗎？？？

但畢竟人不能擁有全部，尤其受環境和現實限制的人。

所以就阿Q地相信了，遺憾也很美。

small blue

又再好久沒有在這裡亂寫了。

我努力分開的一部分世界，逐漸還是要融合了，不過小事。反正到最後我還有這裡，今天想說的在這裡留個痕也不錯。

上次發現愛是聼得見的，這次再次證明一些獨愛偏愛，不是偶然。

那裡面這麽多首歌，偏偏只注意一首。還以爲我原本認爲很特殊的用詞很廣泛，但其實都是同一個人在説話。這樣的話，愛算緣分，還是其實心裡可能就有一種固定模式，碰上就知道？

啊，如果真的“碰上就知道”，多美妙。

p/s: 有幻想來一個smallblue主題K一下。如果這樣，會有人找到那個共同點嗎？嘻嘻。